World of insanity and cute evil!

You Scored as The Moon

2009-12-01T08:10:50Z

You Scored as The Moon

Divinatory Meaning: Completion, Fulfillment. The end of a major cycle. The world of dreams. Reverse Meaning: Holding back reality by living in a dream world. You have a keen sense of people and are able to identify power where others are oblivious. You are drawn toward celestial bodies and draw strength from them. Others find you intriguing, not being able to put their finger on what it is about you that they cannot resist.

The Empress
92%
The Hanging Dragon
92%
The Moon
92%
The Lovers
83%
The Devil
83%
The Tower
83%
The Star
83%
The Fool
75%
The High Priestess
75%
The Emperor
67%
Death
67%
The Hermit
67%
Strength
58%
Justice
33%

http://quizfarm.com/quizzes/new/Brioi/which-of-the-major-arcana-are-you/

Moved out of my apartment from the crazy abusive woman. Lots of drama and stupidity involving money involved, so yeah, not fun times lately.

My time = NAO!?!

2009-08-17T13:04:43Z

So, met a girl on FFXI on a new server I hopped to. She lives two hours away, and begging me to go meet her. She said we can go to Panara and play, whatever that is. Google couldn't decide if it was a medical deal or else a place that sells bread where she lives.

She ALSO said I can stay in her guest room, and can play FFXI on her "geto" laptop, or bring my PS2 / 360 along to play on. Probably gonna at least consider bringing the 360 along, if there's some games she wants to play on it. Nothing says bonding like a wholesome game of Sonic 2 on the Genesis Collection, maybe >>;

So yeah, looks like I struck GOLD~

Only thing I can emo over on this one is that I couldn't sleep AT ALL afterwords, since come on, girl begging ME to stay at HER house? How often does THAT happen? My pulse was going INSANE everytime I started dozing off and thinking about it, and I had a bit of pain in my lungs, and couldn't figure out if I had some heart pain or not. Hard to tell when you're super tired to begin with, as well as too paranoid.

Anywho, going to hope for the best this time around, since I can't really go wrong with a sushi loving, animu watching girl gamer that's over the top enthusiastic to get me to go to her house and hang out with here, can I?

ZNM Wishlist dealio

2009-08-05T06:55:00Z

T1
Numerist Pumps
Corsair's Belt

T2
Avocat Pigaches
Solitaire cape

T3
Oracle's Gloves
Oracle's Braconi
Mekki Shakki
Aurum Sabatons
Aurum Cuisses
Aurum Gauntlets

T4
Alkalurops
Antares
Aurum Armet
Aurum Cuirass

PW
Dorje
Shenlong's Baghnakhs *For the LOLPUP I'll only level if I can make it HQ out of the box*

Poor Ray... Never gets any slack

2009-07-04T14:13:12Z

I get an idea that would level the playing field for the guy, or at least set it up, and everyone else runs crazy over it. I'm the only one that doesn't fear the prospect of SUPRAH RAY, clearly. Give the guy something that places him above the rest, and they all wanna cry him back down to their level with enough tears to make an Ark float >>;

Oh well. Ian did raise a slightly interesting question, that I gave a quick answer in your place, but after being awake for too long and running on an E-Tank now, it makes me wonder too, for data reasons...

Laucorn5555 (11:38:14 PM): Not to be critical of him...but what is he trying to prove with all this magic stuff Jeff?"I" told him it's like how he and the common folk follow God, and that was fine for him. But I'm curious as to learning if that is indeed correct, or if it's some other reason...

Anyways, next time we talk, I'll have some amusement for both of us to prattle on about, since I have a most interesting proposal to pass in the Dark Senate. And if people say no, I'll bust out the Divine Majinns with Yoshi's that's been capped in Item World with GODS slain inside them to pass the bills, since obvious references are now obvious.

I just don't know anymore...

2009-06-26T10:16:00Z

I'm 23, My bangs are slowly going white on me due to likely the stress of how stupid people are making things around these parts, and I barely make over $5,000 a year since my job is as dead end as it gets, and since things went so lulzy that I'm now the only source of income for my household, so I'm deadlocked now into this life...

Meh.

I'm probably giving up on further attempts at "Love", since every time is a failure, and all the women I've been with except for one only wanted to get to know me because of the fact that they realized I'd buy them things that I thought was making them happy, instead of the fact that they were just greedy and worthless people at their cores. Today I got nice and cleaned up and put on clothes that looked very nice, and even put on my glasses, since me and this girl I've slowly been working on for about 7-8 months now were going to meet up and consider doing some things, but nope, nadda. Another deal where I get flat out ignored, not even a greeting or anything.

To Hell with it, all of it. I'm going nowhere, since there's nowhere to actually go. The only thing really left besides rotting for the remainder of my life is to possibly pursue an old dream and a new theory. But the finances... They do nothing!

An old memory from an old dream came to mind recently, and it got my gears going in the ol noggin. Back when I was living on my own, Jackie came to me in a dream and we talked, and she told me how to build a machine that would basically materialize ghosts, and said that we could be together again if I did it. From what I can gather, the thing would essentially act like one of those lulzy EXE Dimensional Area, since it was like a tower or a stick in design, and it would work off of charging an area to a set electrical frequency, so I guess it would be like a cone radius or something that would spread out from the tower device. Paranormal activity is actually heightened in areas of electrical residue, so there's at least a possiblity that it would somehow mess with the visible spectrum, and allow them to be seen easier, or possibly sound, since there's the whole possiblity of it being an electrical frequency of that nature. Then again, I have no real idea where to start on looking, and even how to tweak it, but I know that video recorders are capable of of at least picking up voice recordings off the undead, so maybe I'll try to investigate that way initially...

I'll take my "Emperor of Eternal Damnation" Certificate if this could somehow lead to immortality, by the way, if this succeeded somehow in that fashion. I also can use this as a chance to test some other things out. If it turns out that ghosts are really just some kind of response from the subconcious, and they seem stronger in power at high electrical areas, then perhaps this device could end up being some kind of psychic amplifier if used in certain ways, and all sorts of madness could happen then. Another thing I'd want to mess with, is that back when I got the dream for the inspiration on all this, this was back during the times that I didn't care and was trying to summon spirits and things like that. Given the ol apartment had some creepy things in it after it was all said and done, and pots and pans and other things like to click and clack late at night with nobody around them as well as other things... I wouldn't mind seeing how rusty I am in that respect, and the effects that device could have if I truly was capable of spirit channeling.

Winter Out, Spring IN

2009-04-22T16:13:10Z

Ah... Spring is finally here for us all to lose ourselves in...

Now that Winter is over, and the atmosphere is setting itself up nicely, I think it's time to get back to some training, only this time cranked up. I plan to start a more intense training regime this year, and this year with actual BUDGET for a change. I found a rather interesting book on Amazon today, and while the massive price tag and lack of printing of this yet to be named book snagged my interest, the things it claims inside it were the true selling points. A book that actually supports my own research theories, while having many examples and qouting people from history that actually seem legit in many regards. It's actually something I've been seeking out for a long time and quite pleased to see truly exists.

Once this most dubious titled book arrives from overseas from the far off land of Britania, with possible conspiracy and epic lulz ensuing depending on the seller's part, I can finally bust out the glasses and get into some hardcore reading sessions. I reached this point anyways by staring at a DSI I was thinking of buying, and then alot of games, and ultmately deciding I don't read enough anymore. Snagging a book or two in the mix just made sense, given the last time I bought a book was... a few years ago?

Oh, and I bought a book about Philosphy and the Zelda universe, which shall amuse me to some degree.

So... White hair... Yeah...

2009-01-23T11:53:53Z

All I did was just make a small request to help me figure out why some things happen as they do before going to bed last night, and when I woke up this morning and bumbled into the bathroom to let the floodgates open, some of my bangs and the hair around them turned white on me overnight... Or platinum blonde, since the light REALLY shined when I tried to get a good look at them clumped together...

Good Game, world. Good Game.

I suppose it's a STEP in the right direction. I mean, white hair is a bigger clue to go by than some random people tossing dragons around or some dude that claimed he was the 106th reincarnation of an elf from outer space preaching about dragons and cubis and all that madness. As to what kind of step this means... I's dunt know.

All I know is my hair never grayed, it shot straight to the whiteness, and with the quickness at that, apparantly. I can hope at least that the rest will turn white sooner than later, since with my youthful looks and a set of pure white hair that's as nice as mine, I bet I could snag me quite the nice fetch of women. Yes... Maybe a plan for another day.

New game titles I'm watching out for

2009-01-15T11:42:00Z

DS

Legacy of Ys: Books I & II
Price - $34.99
Release - 02/10/09

Retro Game Challenge
Price - $29.99 USD
Release - 02/10/09

Pokemon Platinum Version
Price - $34.99 USD
Release - 03/22/09

Nintendo DSi
Price - $180 USD
Release - April 09? (Rumor)

Ghostbusters
Price - $29.99
Release - 06/16/09

POSSIBLY Fire Emblem: Shadow Dragon, and Phantasy Star Zero

PSP

Star Ocean: Second Evolution
Price - $39.99
Release - 01/19/09

Prinny: Can I really be the hero?
Price - $39.99
Release - 02/17/09

Phantasy Star Portable
Price - $39.99
Release - 03/24/09

Wii

Ghostbusters
Price - $49.99
Release - 06/16/09

Xbox 360

Sonic's Ultimate Genesis Collection
Price - $29.99
Release - 02/10/09

Grand Theft Auto IV: The lost and the damned
Price - $19.99?
Release - 02/17/09

Halo Wars
Price - $59.99
Release - 03/03/09

Prototype
Price - $59.99
Release - 06/01/09

Overlord 2
Price - $59.99
Release - 06/01/09

Ghostbusters
Price - $59.99
Release - 06/16/09

Going to edit in the total price to see how much my wallet shall weep this coming year. PS3 is also supposed to get a price drop as well around April, so depending if they have any Stimulus Packages here in the US like last year somehow, this year I'll be a greedilox and let my great nation buy me a PS3 so I can enjoy Disgaea 3 and Metal Gear Solid 4, and then question why I bought it after beating those two games, since there's no other appealing titles to me on it at this time.

The waiting begins...

2008-12-01T05:54:06Z

Sky
1. Wyrm Abj: Legs
2. Martial Abjuration: Head
3. Martial Abjuration: Hands
4. Aquarian Abj: Hands
5.
6.
7.
8.
9.
10.

Sea
1. Faith Torgue, even have a pop item for it in my MH
2. Altruistic Cape
3. Hope Staff
4. Novio Earring
5. Bellona's Ring
6. Fortitude Torque
7.
8.
9.
10.

Limbus
1. Nashira Legs
2. Nashira Hands
3.
4.
5.
6.
7.
8.
9.
10.

Ground Kings
1. Aquarian Abj: Body
2. Wyrm Abj: Body
3. Defending Ring
4. Aegishjalmr
5. Wyrmal Abjuration: Head
6. Martial Abjuration: Body
7. Martial Abjuration: Feet
8. Martial Abjuration: Legs
9. Aquarian Abj: Hands
10.

ToAU Kings
1. Hauteclaire
2.
3.
4.
5.
6.
7.
8.
9.
10.

Wyrms (Including Bahamut)
1. Bahamut Staff
2. Mercurial Pole
3. Heralds Gaiters
4. Bahamut's Mask
5.
6.
7.
8.
9.
10.

Einherjar
1. Aquarian Abjuration: Body
2. Wyrmal Abjuration: Body
3. Aquarian Abjuration: Hands
4.
5.
6.
7.
8.
9.
10.

Misc.
1. Enhancing Sword
2. Ugg. Pendant
3. Hermes' Sandals
4. Supremacy Earring from SCNM Mega Boss
5. Serket Ring
6. Ixion Cape
7. Velocious Belt / Speed Belt
8. Genie Gages
9.
10.

Anything that'll make my current jobs COR/RDM/SMN awesome, or when I finally cap them, PLD and BLM, I'll gladly take.

Oh yes... We shall see... What this venture nets me...

My intelligence surpasses that of entire civilizations

2008-10-23T10:12:25Z

It's true...

The "Ancients" couldn't begin to touch upon this greatness. Even entire R&D Labs would be hard pressed to top me when I'm "In the groove", so to speak. I have a natural nack for turning the impossible possible, but just lack the drive and resources to make it happen. Except for women things, since I come to the conlusion that women don't exist, and instead are just overly hairy and high pitched males with excessive fat deposits on their chests, and eraser sized dingle dongles, and inverted testicles, so can't make the fictional possible there, yo.

Anywho, anyone who can take the most simplistic of science and turn it around into the true potential of most under abused situations like I can, clearly deserves a mighty reward. Some desire merely a cookie, a pat on the back, or another form of acknowledgement... Me? I want a factory to pump the cookies out for me. Coming from the boonies, where I wasn't allowed to take science and the likes, nor given proper guidance for the areas I excelled and showed great promise anyways, I think I'm well overdue to collect on some things. Borderline Wily insane and sheer brilliance... And yet, I don't have a gas consuming vehicle, like regular people. For shame, mofo, for shame...

That's ALOT of GBA games!

2008-10-09T19:08:21Z

I was bored and couldn't sleep this morning, so I took the liberty of compiling a "Master List" of all the GBA CARTS I've ever owned...

GBA List

Pokemon Emerald
Pokemon Leaf Green
Legend of Zelda Link to the Past
Super Mario Advance (Mario 2)
Wario Land 4
Golden Sun
Metroid: Zero Mission
Mario and Luigi
Megaman Battle Network
Fire Emblem
Rockman Zero 2
Final Fantasy VI Advance
Super Street Fighter 2 Turbo Revival
Lunar Legend
Final Fantasy V Advance
Final Fantasy Tactics Advance
Golden Sun 2 The Lost Age
Sonic Advance 2
Sonic Advance
Castlevania Circle of the Moon
Kirby: Nightmare in Dreamland
Final Fantasy IV Advance
Castlevania Aria of Sorrow
Star Wars Episode 1: Jedi Power Battles
Dragon Ball Z: Legacy of Goku
Megaman Battle Network 2
Megaman Zero 4
Metal Slug Advance
Sigma Star Saga
Yugioh Eternal Duelist Soul
Metroid Fusion
Dragon Ball Z: Legacy of Goku II
Final Fantasy I and II Dawn of Souls
Castlevania NES
Tactic Ogre: The Knight of Lodis
Phantasy Star Collection
Super Robot Taisen OG2
Megaman Battle Network 5 Team Protoman
Advance Guardian Heroes
Breath of Fire II
Megaman Battle Network 3 Blue
Bomberman Tournament
Megaman Battle Network 3 White
Megaman and Bass
Gunstar Super Heroes
Wario Ware Inc. Mega Microgames
Zelda Minish Cap
Megaman Zero
Super Robot Taisen OG
Super Mario Advance 4 (Mario 3)
Breath of Fire
Rockman EXE 4.5 Real Operation with Battle Chip Gate
Ghost and Goblins Famicom Collection
Twinbee Famicom Collection
E-Reader
Donkey Kong Jr E-Reader
Balloon Fight E-Reader
Donkey Kong E-Reader

...Good God! I owned nearly 60 titles for my GBA! That's amazing and pathetic! I bought more games than the cost of my LAPTOP. I will admit, though, that they're ALL great games in their own regard, so maybe that's awesome to have a list of games worthy of rebuying down the road... >>;

Remembering one's heritage

2008-09-27T10:03:14Z

"The fool. You are the wind. Even if you don't control it...nothing controls you."

That quote struck me as pretty interesting. I do as I please, and go where I want, so maybe it's about right. Since it's emo awesome to post song lyrics on LJ for now, I 1UP the rest and put a link to the song for the lazy, since lyrics are worthless alone.

http://www.youtube.com /watch?v=Ju3fK2agjLs

Space so nobody can monitor where it's been linked to, since I'm that great.

Another trip down memory lane shows that "Lord of Nightmares", through some assbackwards way, actually exists. Seriously. Or so my latest research indicates. I've begun to look back to dreams, and I've learnt some interesting things in theory based upon it. Even a way to keep a dead person alive... Interesting story there, but for another time/place.

As I remember other things I've done or able to do, I'll jot them down. I'm attempting to look to the past to get a better glimpse of the future. No telling what all could happen the next time I lose my cool, so best to figure out what might happen, so I can get counter measures in place. Can't rule out that something even unexpected might result from it all, so no claims or anything of the sort. I just don't have a good feeling about what's in store for me down the road, even moreso with all the signs and such...

WOULD have been prepared just fine, but NUUUUU! People have to be frauds and hold people in check through fear tactics and petty threats, instead of answering a sincere plea for help, and twist an innocent deal around into having shadow people sent to watch you like a beast. Best show of friendship to date, I'd say. At least there's a bountiful supply of "Hatorade" to go around, or so I'm told. And something about Jewland, too. Probably has higher taxes than Japanland, though.

Class is in session, and the training is GOOD.

So, this is what dying truly feels like...?

2008-09-12T09:03:29Z

So much pain... So much... And it's only growing stronger, at a truly alarming rate now...

At this rate, I'll lose the ability to even sleep properly, though I'm close to that as it goes now. Fevers, or else high blood pressure acting in the same fashion, basically force me to keep a fan going on me for comfort at home. At work, in just hours, my body aches like it used to take a week worth of work, so I'll likely just keep trimming hours before I just get released, or else drop.

My bones are definetely no better. The cracking in my right arm has now managed to go as far as to my elbow now, compared to originally just the wrist area, and the rate of cracking has only increased from once or twice an hour to now within 5-30 seconds before the pressure rebuilds to pop again. My left arm flairs with pain so strong, that sleep is impossible. My left shoulder still can pop and sound like cheap plastic, to remind me of my fate, and the bone grinds and crunches all along the joint, so no clue what's going to ultimately happen there. My knee caps like to crack and pop on their own for no reason, so no clue there. My feet even crack and pop loudly too. Neck can also crack really loudly and freaks people out when I do that one, so I usually do that alone or away from people. Even my jaw pops and locks up. For awhile there, given it wouldn't connect well with it's hinge, I thought I somehow dislocated it or harmed it somehow.

The other week, my right foot would flair up with such strong pain, I was falling to the ground, and getting nausea feeling as well as getting a good sized migrane over the stress that was causing me. Sometimes when I bend over, my back makes a crunching sound... Yeah... That clearly can't be good. Must be all the work I keep pushing myself to do. Must be >>;

Oh, and to toss more fire into... the fire, my left eye has an uncontrollable spasm whenever I "Thank" my customers at my job, and I'm sure that'll get me into some trouble sooner or later. They'll either figure out I'm crazy, or else I'll finally go crazy and do as I please even more.

Guess I should have worked on that wheelchair when I had the chance, since that probably would help me a bit. Then again, my legs flair up with pain as well when I sit or lay too long nowadays, so it's a lose - lose all around for me. Instead, put too much faith into false tales and lies, to cling to some hope that maybe things could work out for the better. Sure learnt my lesson there. Not like that matters anyways, given where I'm going, such things matter in the least. It's hard to even pinpoint an estimate as to how much time I likely have left, given it's really been kicking up faster and stronger the past two weeks, most noticably the past few days. Heck, could drop dead somehow over the next few days for all I know, which would make some people happy, for they gleefully wished death upon me and told me to go to Hell, so guess their wish shall be granted.

Guess I COULD try to enjoy my final bit of time in this world, but nah... Body constantly cracking and popping as well as pain in my bones to remind me what's going to happen sorta kills any chance for that. The fact that I only have Ray and Ian as pals at least makes it easier for crowd control when something happens. I can relish in the fact that many people will be happy and filled with joy over such a deal, so maybe it really isn't a bad thing. At least I know there's no such thing as Cecilia to worry about raping me in the next life, so I'm all good on that end :P

YES! YEEEEES! OH GODS YES!!!

2008-08-22T15:25:27Z

Fay, in her neverending beauty, is now projected by all media outlets to head to the center of MI, and then actually TURN AROUND. All this around Wednesday.

That's actually so epic, even the big Z likely cannot believe it. Hells Bells, I know at least two people are going to have a hard time believing it, especially since one of those people actually requested such a thing as is.

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Winner is ME! MEEEEEE! OVERLORD! OVERLORD! OVERLOOOOOOOOOORD!!!

All in all, I think this experiment has been a blaring success all across the board. The results have completely exceeded past runs, and stand as a testament of how far things have come in recent years. It also opens up a slew of questions and many a things to be concerned over, but celebrations first, THEN endless worrying that'll make even X cringe.

So, I get my book now? Or else crazy dream girl that loved me because my antics acted like a muse to her and allowed her to advance her career far beyond anything she could have ever hoped for?

It's mine! ALL MINE!!!

2008-08-16T13:52:17Z

So much goodness, that I'll deem it as a worthy addition to my cause.

http://www.rosenqueen.com/index.asp?PageAction=VIEWPROD&ProdID=251

This is what it's like to have nice things, yes.

I do this, because I can

2008-06-24T03:40:56Z

Pray I get this!
Yingyang Robe

Shiki ToD 11:32:12 PM EST

Things I would like
Legion Scutum
Numerist Pumps
Avocat Pigaches
Ruby Seraweels
Magic Strap
Solitaire Cape
Antares
Alkalurops

Things I got ^^b
Karura Hachigane

POKEMAN RANCH HATH COME TO CLEANSE OUR SINS!

2008-06-09T16:06:50Z

HELLO! Pokemon Box #2, with Free Mew as well as other things exclusive to it!

GOODBYE! Several dozen boxes worth of Pokemon I've bred! I need the space, and Squirtles were a bad investment :P

Career personality type is ISTP...

2008-05-23T10:00:29Z

I need to figure something out sooner than later, before I ultimately become afflicted with whatever consumed Dumi, given the things he said to me before he died all hit a bit too close to home as far as truths went...

My life is in shambles, and as much as I hide the facts or attempt to boast my way over current events, I'm at the bottom of the barrel currently. I have a job that's a joke, since I was given two promotion oppurtunities within the company, but they both have a far greater demand than I currently have, and one had a 10 cent raise per hour, and the other was removed as a chance for me after I asked about the pay benefits. My job also has cut my hours since I turned down the 10 cent raise and promotion bit by a fair amount, and they also have turned a week or two ordeal to get my direct deposit into effect into an endless waiting game now. To retaliate, I do Homer Simpson's Mantra of instead of striking or quitting my job, I just come in and do it half assed every day, since that's the American Way, but being late for over 33 days in a row doesn't seem to affect these people...

As far as my Family Life goes, me and my Mother don't bother at all, even though we're in the same vicinity for the first time basically in my life, and the only time we really talk is whenever either of us leaves our TV or Computers and bump into each other in the main house. She's fixed it mostly where people aren't thinking we're doing an elaborate drug cartel business from the house, but there's still a few worthless flesh sacks that pop in now and then, but that's when I usually standby ready with a knife, since ganking someone in broad daylight by jumping out of nowhere isn't a bad plan of action when you're clueless, and only topped in sheer fun when you do it by executing the operation with a spoon and stabbing them with the bottom tip, since getting stabbed with a blunt object hurts, yo. Also had a Great Aunt nearly die, which prompted my Mother to leave for a week, and then a week after she returned, my Great Grandmother died, and everyone in my family but me left to mourn. I had to stay behind since it was determined I couldn't afford to take time from my job to mourn the loss of a family member, which caused even me to break down into tears in public on the clock, since that was basically the ultimate sign that I'm crashing into a brick wall... Now I'm just biding my time until my predictions about who dies next in my family comes true, so I can execute plans that I've had in the works for those events. Probably going to lose everything upon the next death, though, so guess that's when I'm just SoL and probably down for the count for good depending on how it goes. Not sure, going to have to wait and see what blows up, since the next death sets off a chain reaction event.

On the Friends front, it's all quiet. After Dumi talked to me out of the blue about Suicide, and never returned afterwords, it's unnerved me. If some stupid person that wasn't going anywhere in their life came to me about such a thing, I would have been bitter and pushed them over the edge for the thrill and power in taking another's life... But in the case of Dumi... He was actually SMART, and worthwhile as a person. He'd give you whatever he had if he felt he could spare it and it'd make you happier. I personally advised him to just wait things out, and gave him strong encouragement that things would get better with time. Since I'll admit that I was never overly fond of him, I didn't notice until about a week and a half later after that incident that he wasn't on AIM. After extensive poking about, and learning that he gave away all his belongings, as he mentioned in an earlier chat with me, and leaving a near endless supply of messages on his cellphone with my number and messages of encouragement, it doesn't take even a slow person to put two and two together for that answer... So in the end, the one time I really try, the unexpected and unexplained happened, and someone dies due to my intervention. Grand. Most of my faith in myself is basically shot at the moment, since if it was someone like... say... Sky, who offed themself, then hey, easy answer to a question that didn't really need one to begin with. But in Dumi's case... It's made me question my own mortaltiy, coupled with what his logic and true reasoning was behind it. What happened to him after he died? Why did he did he actually do it after I told him not to? How did he get the Hell and Guts up to actually pull it off? Will I see him whenever I die, or is he in some Purgatory or some other place now? If so on that case, is it even possible to conjure him up and to get some form of a pact made? Hey, don't knock on someone that's crazy with options, since being a Spirit Medium has some perks at points >>;

Love Life is null and void and died long ago. All I ever find is girls with dicks or girls that want their own dicks, or else they have a dick attitude, so meh. Since I'm such an eccentric person, pairing me up with anyone succesfully seems impossible, or else people have the wrong ideas, and it's just setting up a bomb in the end. So many people with such high hope and faith I placed in them, and so many burns and over the top reactions from them. I should just slap together a robot and just declare I'm a technophile, since that wouldn't really blow minds or anything at this point in the game, and I'm sure she wouldn't object to this or that, let alone attempt to dictate my actions or validate her own self opinions and worth in an endless struggle that never needed to be.

Finances are shot. Best way to put it. Cost of living is outrageous here in the South, hence I constantly kept going north and to places like WA in the past. Milk costs $4.19 a gallon, Tostino Pizzas that I used to get for $1 up north are about $1.40-$1.50 here. Cereals and such can run about $5-$6 on average, and a light lunch that isn't going to make you bloat up like a whale or kill you from so much glucose intake costs about $6, which is more than it did up north. Heck, at least up north I was making a dollar or more an hour than here, and lunches were worth it. I usually make $120-$150ish a week on average, and pay $50 a week for bills, and then whatever is left is for food and other obligations, but when it costs $30ish or so a week to eat for a single person, that adds up pretty quick...

My health has taken a good hit, as it's becoming clear from how many fevers, headaches, and nausea incidents I have anymore that I'm not doing too well. My bones are getting a bit stiff nowadays, which isn't too good, but I can still pop them to relieve pressure that has built up, so outside of the sick feeling that induces initially, the release feels nice. Somehow during my sleep a few weeks ago, I ended up hurting the left side of my jaw, and now it doesn't sit quite right from the feel of it. It's crunching and grinding like the rest of my bones and joints now, but something doesn't feel quite right about the pressure in it...

So yeah, long story short, I'm basically at my wits end, and losing it all together. I can hold on still, but my own advice to wait it out and see what comes seems to be a bit of a fallicious statement in the coming time, since it just looks like I'll keep working a dead end job with no real satisfaction save for a few things I splurge money on that amuse for a tiny bit, until I ultimately work myself to death or to whatever comes after a Euphoric Insanity... Given I'm already clearly insane, but the good kind where I can see the greater picture of things and not be bound by typical logic patterns or have emotions overly affect certain things, since I haven't mauled anyone yet, though I've certainly come close in the past few weeks to doing such actions.

Still better than the rest, won't give it up since I'm the best

2008-04-16T07:09:36Z

Hahahaha.

Silly, worthless, meaningless people. While some of the "Greatest" Scientists on the planet wrack their minds to attempt to come up with various postulates and thesis reports on this or that, most of which is constantly, "Been there, done that" stuff for real science, I can come up with equal or usually greater solutions without so much as batting an eyelash. Seriously, I devised how to cure Cancer, solve AIDS, Immortality, Eternal Youth, as well as Perpetual Energy, and all this in just about two to three days. The funniest part of all is that my thesis on the subjects listed are actually feasible, just "Frowned Upon", and unethical for the most part, due to how limited society has held back science.

Next big project to give minimal thought and research effort towards! - Figuring out how to manipulate the natural phosphorous in the human body's makeup to control trigger spontaneous combustion, since really now, I'm one step closer to what the ignorant masses classify as a "God" if I can make people burst into flames at will. I sorta win this round on that one, too XD

Already figured out all sorts of other stuff, and starting to question how viable self business would be. Maybe if I get a really demented sponsor and tons of people to work under me, I could really let loose and do crazy things. I still need to get around to figuring out what electrical frequency ghosts and the like exist on, so I can materialize them for giggles sometime with that Hilbert Effect dealio that I was told how to do in a dream. It'd be amusing to see how the world would turn out if the concept of death itself was removed, and all that was once lost would once again be free in something similar to a crazy Dimensional Area kind of effect.

Man, if I ran my own company with all these things I'm cable of doing realized, I'd easily be the richest person in all existence. Powerful, to boot! Think about what "MY" fiscal year could have been like! ; ;

Anyways, since I've been hushed hushed, I've been bidding my time doing some things. Managed to get a waste of life known as a 20 year old woman to get her ovaries removed, since she's from a genetically defective line, and felt the trait was dominant that ailed her, so this amuses me and makes me gain a smidge of respect for her as a living being. I wish some of the other people who are subjective to Darwinism would glance this over and do the thing, since I'm sure she realizes who she is if she's made it this far. Then again, that person can't even read without computer aide, let alone put together a coherent thought process that has actual consequences and equal reactions for her usually idiotic actions. *Psssst, I'm talking about you, Sky, since you never realized that I unfriended you very quickly since I got the hint real quick that you're really worthless and dead weight, unlike the people that want into your genetically defective panties. If you stumble upon this, be sure to remove me from your list, since there's no such thing as friendship between us, and you're wasting any form of time or gesture to attempt to garner such response from me*

Less epic is that I'm still holding the same job for about three months, which is a bit of a record after the long string of short time jobs I've been holding. Then again, most were temp work, seasonal, or getting fired for doing the right thing.

Oh yeah, finally got an HDTV, and wide screen to boot, so I'll be moving towards console gaming once more after nearly three years of not being able to play them. Almost 100% positive I'll save up for a 360 Elite, and be done with it. I can list off tons of games for the system I want, like Inafune's Dead Rising, which is said to blow away ANYTHING Rockman related the man's churned out for the past couple of years.

On said HDTV, got to play my PSP on it. Powered Up is as sharp and crisp, and not to mention fluid, as any of the PS2 games. Actually, Twinbee's collection as well as Dracula X Chronicles and all my other "Traditional" games on my PSP translated flawlessly to the screen, and look like they did on their respective systems/mediums. Now when I played Crisis Core on there... Oh god, WORST. LOOKING. GAME. EVER. So overly pixelated, as well the text is unreadable. It's disgusting, really. I'd be more impressed if developers began incorporating a selection for PSP and TVOUT options on the games, sorta like how GBA games like FFTA had it where you select the color options for Regular GBA/GBA SP/GBA Gamecube Thingy.

Renewed my URL to Usahi.net, yet have done NOTHING for it. Now I'm just wondering as to what I can even slap on there, as opposed to just making it something like a blog site.

Realized in the end that save for some severe anger and violence reasons, I'm generally just better off being alone. As in... I don't actually NEED someone like I been raised or told to think. I'm good enough on my own to cover myself, and save for urges that can be fixed here or there through certain means, there's starting to look like more benefits to just leading a life alone. No living up to other people's standards, nor having to be pestered by another person's friends or family members, let alone the trust issues that would likely arise. I've come to realize recently that women really DO exist just to get jammed into and pop it out with a bit extra down the road, and mainly meant to prolong the species. Albeit, this isn't their ONLY real kind of merit, but it's the biggie, which is ALL RIGHT! in it's on ways, but there's so many woman nowadays that's doing the whole feminist deal and using men for their own hidden agendas, that it's not even WORTH getting involved with alot of them anymore. It's like getting a nice gun, and then being told that it's trade off is that one day it may backfire and cost you your hand, or even your life. I see all these people that get together for short term deals, or go together for decades just to have one of them finally snap and say how they were using the other for this or that, and ultimately just ruin their spouse's life, and I definetely don't want any of that. Got enough blood of the innocents on my hands, and don't need to add more to it.

Blah Blah Blah Science Mode Blah Jigglypuffy.

sb_journal @ 2008-04-10T14:48:00

2008-04-10T18:48:11Z

2:47:06 PM

Just so the poor people know...

2008-03-09T18:30:48Z

I recently imported Twinbee Portable for my PSP a few weeks ago, and I must say... Konami really does a great job at this kind of stuff. DXC wasn't bad at all for touching up Rondo, as well as the slew of goodies and sound test included within to promote multiple playthroughs of the game, not to mention the games in it played, looked, and sounded solid. Quite an accomplishment for a portable game, given there wasn't any real slowdowns or other issues in the ported games that we see in more powerful systems. (Curse you, Megaman Anniversary Collection!)

Anywho, the reasons that Twinbee Portable really does a great job is that the bright and cheerful colors of the Twinbee series really benefit from the crisp LCD that the PSP is known for. It actually makes things MORE lively and engaging, and makes noticing little details alot easier, compared to say... a monitor. The sound also seems to be touched up a bit on some of the games, like Yahoo! in a large chunk of songs. I'm going to guess it's due to usually playing on emulation save for one or two of the games, so maybe the PSP version uses more sound channels that the emulators haven't been able to do?

The touched up Gameboy Twinbee on here is really well done, too. Sprites look hand drawn, and it tries to keep close to the feel the original Arcade game, with a few tweaks and innovations, like if you die in it, Twinbee's ghost slowly floats up to the top, but if you snag it fast enough, you'll recover all your Bell Powers. It also holds a very nostalgic boss battle on the fourth stage, and does a nice job of showing that Konami still has it in them to show this series justice.

The final, and arguably BEST selling point, is that right out of the case, this game has a sound select that has all the music, even songs that were cut from the games, listed in a nice order as well as includes song titles and descriptions. Did I mention that they're all played at a very high sound quality? Detena Twinbee has it's Arcade soundtrack as well as it's X6000 version as well included on here, just to show how detailed they went as far as care.

So in the end... Here's the full package.

Twinbee
Detena Twinbee
Twinbee Yahoo!
Pop'N Twinbee
Twinbee Da

All that for... $20? Yes, please. Seriously, it's a great bargain, even more so since the Twinbee Two Pack for Saturn and Playstation still goes for $40 or higher used, and that just holds Yahoo! and Detena on it.

Oh, and if anyone's been curious what I've been up to, I applied at one store, went in person to check on my application, I got the job, got promoted shortly afterwords because my manager approached me asking me to take a position and sent me to paid training, and got my hours doubled. Oh yeah, I found out that I'm likely not dying of a cancerous bump on my leg, so my moral and ambitions have gotten a bit of a boost, which is always a good thing.

Then again, I've been on AIM like always every day, so it's not like the people who would want to know what's going on couldn't just ask me anywho.

sb_journal @ 2008-01-22T11:07:00

2008-01-22T16:07:24Z

ToD

20 - 2:12 PM
21 - 11:20 AM
22 - 8:36 AM
23 - 5:49 AM
24 - 3 AM?
25 - 12 Midnight
26 - 9:22ish PM

Damn, I'm good~

2008-01-02T20:27:39Z

So yeah... Today, I went out for a little walk, and stopped into the grocery store near here that I applied at online, and decided to check up on my application... Two people didn't show up today, and they had management filling spots, conviently for what I was trying to get. Asked to talk to a manager to see if it went in there or not, since I had a problem last time with it all, and they instead didn't look at my application...

Instead, she took my name, number, asked about experience I had, and availability, and said she'd give it to the store manager when he gets in at 4 PM today. So yeah, all I did was walk outside today because I wanted a job, and I got a job. Didn't help my ego, as I'm still judgemental as can be about other people that won't/lack a job, even though this is a fluke as it gets in my case.

So yeah, time to revise that New Years List.

1. Obtain a job *Simple since it's required to live* "Done"
2. Save money up for my own place "Done"

3. Find love in another person that's preferably a girl of just about any specifications, flat/fat/busty/skinny/next to anything as long as they have genuine interest in me. No penises or desires to grow one in girls I deal with in 2008, please. "Um... Someday a girl/lady may show geniune interest in me, and I'll gladly take her in, but no luck just yet, still too early on too most likely. Who knows? Someone may have a cousin or sister tucked away they could ante up as Tribute to me and all that jazz >_>;"

4. Get a DNA Test done to find out about my Ancestry, since Indians are red skin, and Europeans are all white basically, yet I have a light yellowish tone, so something is in the mix. "Costs $100 it seems, and takes 2-3 weeks to get results back, and the LEGAL documentation provided will prove valuable for the next thing on my list..."

5. College stuff, be it majoring in Library Science like I want, and minoring in Journalism. "Can't get ahold of my Biological Father, so meh. Gonna get in no matter what, but can't prove my Indian heritage since they claimed to be whities back in their days as ancestors, so I'll see how it goes down. Heck, given I don't even know my Father's side, the insight provided alone is worth the price, since it likely can prove if I'm related to President Ford, Gerald Ford who created the automobile, as well as Harrison Ford, as a testament of the glory that's in my blood from his side. Anyways, yeah, Accademic Librarianship for the win, and if that fails, I'll become a journalist since I usually got A+ ratings on my English classes, and be thankful that I'm an accomplished photographer in the past and can utilize backup skills for monies."

New thingies

6. Get back my FF7, somehow, someway.
7. Ding 75 with another job on FFXI before the year ends.
8. Ding 75 on SMN on FFXI before the year ends.
9. Manage to get down to 180 pounds, since I can't break past 190 for some reason.
10. "I'll get to this whenever I figure out what it is"

So yeah, that's about it. Enjoy, and stuff.

New Year, New Ramblings, Same Old Desires

2008-01-02T05:48:59Z

So I figured I'd take some time out of my great traveling schedule to update for a change. After I lost my job for doing a good deed, I ended up leaving the state of WA in only two weeks or so, and gone off to Tampa area of FL. Tampa didn't hold my interests for long, since things fell apart there, so I moved near Orlando area to get money raised up. Reviewing the budget and how things are going, I'd say in the next two months tops I'll be leaving yet again, and this time to the state of KY, since a home visit isn't a bad trip, usually.

Looking at all that I've accomplished on a whim in just the text up above, and how I listen to other people with their "Dreams and Desires", it really frustrates me that other people limit themselves so much. I get the fact that I can travel so easily due to having such a high value and worth, but in turn... would that mean alot of those people that's situations and suh are actually worthless?

So with all the shameless "I R ALIVIN!!11!" stuff out of the way, I'll go ahead and get the New Years bit rolling. First off, I'll start with some fun, and post 10 predictions I have for 2008...

1. Huckabee will become the next USA President
2. Sky will explode into a G Cup
3. Someone close to me will die
4. Iron Man the movie will sell like hot cakes
5. New Touhou game
6. New Smash Bros Brawl delay
7. Final Fantasy software on VC or Playstation Store
8. A new game for the 1999 Battle in Castlevania
9. Someone I know will become pregnant
10. Hilary/Obama will become the other's running mate

Now the annual "Resolution" bittage...

1. Obtain a job *Simple since it's required to live*
2. Save money up for my own place
3. Find love in another person that's preferably a girl of just about any specifications, flat/fat/busty/skinny/next to anything as long as they have genuine interest in me. No penises or desires to grow one in girls I deal with in 2008, please.
4. Get a DNA Test done to find out about my Ancestry, since Indians are red skin, and Europeans are all white basically, yet I have a light yellowish tone, so something is in the mix.
5. College stuff, be it majoring in Library Science like I want, and minoring in Journalism.

I'll think up some more, since I'm passig out here, so later.

Boo, last entry for 2007

2008-01-01T04:56:40Z

Couldn't just end the year without one last LJ entry, now could I? :P

Expect the fun entry later on after this one.